Thursday, March 23, 2006

The Chronicles of Insomnia

(Title inspired by the Saturday Night Live Skit/Video . . . I wish I could remember the words . . .)

I haven’t been sleeping very well again this week. I fall asleep almost right away, but then I wake up again a couple of times a night and have a bit of trouble trying to get back to sleep. So much going on . . . so many things to think about . . .

Last night I had a dream that I couldn’t find my driver’s license, and my friend and I kept looking in pockets and coats and everything to try to find it, but to no avail. We found a lot of old IDs of other people, but not mine. So we tried to make a new one. I don’t remember how or if it ended, because I woke up again . . .

Gee, does this symbolize something? Hmmmm . . .

Anyway, this being the last week in the old department, I’m trying to clean things up, but not doing a good job of it. I’m not changing offices or anything, and there isn’t anyone who is going to be taking over my duties right away. So I’m going to be staring at all of the same stuff while trying to get into a new mindset. I’m going to come in sometime this weekend to purge my office and get rid of a lot of files that I haven’t looked at for years and noone else will care about. That should help a little . . .

I told the ESL people that I’m not going to teach this summer, but will do so again in the Fall. (I’ve taught through all the semesters since September 2004.) Yay! And I resigned from the church board that I had been on because I just couldn’t handle doing much more than choir. Yay! So now the summer evening should be free to do whatever! Hooray! . . .

A ton of weight should be lifted off of my shoulders . . .

But whenever I go several days without a good foundation of sleep, I start getting very cranky and extremely sensitive to everything. So today I came into the office and immediately things started to go wrong. Well, not wrong, but extremely annoying things are happening that I really didn’t want to deal with today. Can’t this stuff wait until next week? . . .

I need a vacation in the worst way . . . I want to go somewhere else for a couple of days and not have to worry about this random stuff for a little while. I need time to mentally transition and prepare. I thought things were going to get better, but they aren’t quite yet. I’m trying to keep a stiff upper lip . . .

I guess the main thing I need right now is some sleep . . .

3 comments:

Zataod said...

Speaking from experience, not getting the amount of sleep you want changes everything. It makes me feel like an entirely different person.

I hope you can get back to more sleep soon.

Merci said...

Are you reinventing yourself with a little help from your friends? The dream about the license makes it sound that way!

Have you ever tried keeping a notebook by the bed? I've read that it helps to write down the thoughts that keep you up at night, sort of a "to do" list.

Hope you have a restful night tonight!

Virginia Gal said...

Change can often make us restless...as for vacation, say the word and I'll help plan a jaunt to London!