The Verdict is In . . .

Finally got the results from the doctor yesterday.

Mr. Random was right there by my side as the doctor said . . . that the tests showed about what he thought they would, and that I have no reason to worry – things should be OK.

The pain and discomfort that I am feeling right now has to do with the problem actually shrinking – which is a good thing. There is more involved, but that would definitely cross into the “Way Too Much Information” category. But the bottom line is that Mr. Random and I should definitely be able to have kids in the future and we’ll keep monitoring the situation to make sure that there aren’t other hurdles.

It is SUCH a big relief to have that all over with!

However, I must admit that I was very disappointed when I heard the news at first, because I had been worrying about this for so long and parsing every bad scenario in my head that for nothing to be really wrong was a bit of a let down. That’s really sad, huh? I was fully looking forward to having to have some sort of operation and looking forward to taking time to recuperate.

Do you know how sad a state you have to be in that you look forward to major surgery as an opportunity for time off and rest?

With this reprieve of sorts, I really need to sit down and think of changes that I need to make in my life so that I’m not constantly on the treadmill trying to do a million things. I really need to think about, as my boss says, ways to bring more joy into my life.

So now that that big thing is no longer hanging over my head, now I can just focus on whether I’m going to be laid off or not and on my sister’s deployment to Iraq on March 15th. You know, just little stuff like that . . .

But for today, the sun is shining and the future is looking much, much better . . .